Do you ever feel ambivalent about something you used to feel was so essential?
For the past few months, I have struggled with things to go into this space. I think when I created the blog, I intended it to be a personal journal, and then somewhere in the middle, I wanted to become a 'professional' blog presence -- and now I am not blogging much at all, because I am so busy doing. I am a strong believer in the phrase do what you love, and good will follow. At the moment, I am doing a lot of what I love, and I hope that more blog posts and thoughts will follow into this space.
Perhaps part of my struggle with blogging relates to who I am as a person. I am an intensely private person in many ways, especially with my inner thoughts. A blog is a sort of opposing force in that regard -- a place to put down your thoughts, a sort of public journal.
I would like to write more here about what I am thinking, what is happening, but I feel that mostly what I put down ends up being a very clinical and distant representation of what I am doing and who I am. I find it easier, actually, to write within the constructs of another brands' blog.
I think the 'cure' for this (if there is such a thing) is perhaps just to become more comfortable with who I am, and what I am doing, so I am going to take a little pressure off myself and come back to blogging as I feel like it. I want this space to really reflect who I am, and I think in order for it to do that, I need to know more about myself.
Many of you are older and wiser bloggers than myself -- and I would be very open to hearing your thoughts or feedback, through the comments or via email, if you like.