Sunday, July 13, 2014

thoughts

Do you ever feel ambivalent about something you used to feel was so essential?

For the past few months, I have struggled with things to go into this space. I think when I created the blog, I intended it to be a personal journal, and then somewhere in the middle, I wanted to become a 'professional' blog presence -- and now I am not blogging much at all, because I am so busy doing. I am a strong believer in the phrase do what you love, and good will follow. At the moment, I am doing a lot of what I love, and I hope that more blog posts and thoughts will follow into this space.

Perhaps part of my struggle with blogging relates to who I am as a person. I am an intensely private person in many ways, especially with my inner thoughts. A blog is a sort of opposing force in that regard -- a place to put down your thoughts, a sort of public journal.

I would like to write more here about what I am thinking, what is happening, but I feel that mostly what I put down ends up being a very clinical and distant representation of what I am doing and who I am. I find it easier, actually, to write within the constructs of another brands' blog.

I think the 'cure' for this (if there is such a thing) is perhaps just to become more comfortable with who I am, and what I am doing, so I am going to take a little pressure off myself and come back to blogging as I feel like it. I want this space to really reflect who I am, and I think in order for it to do that, I need to know more about myself.

Many of you are older and wiser bloggers than myself -- and I would be very open to hearing your thoughts or feedback, through the comments or via email, if you like.

1 comment:

  1. I went through a very "dry" period with blogging. I wasn't getting feedback, and Facebook and Ravelry were much more satisfying in that regard. I really wasn't that interested in reading anyone else's blog either during that time. I chalked it up to the ebb and flow of life. Sometimes we're into one thing and sometimes another. I think it's hard for a private person to blog about their inner selves and they (as in I) write more about projects or travels than I do my inner workings. Good luck.

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